INDIA POISED...

Dunno why i'm writin this post,and havn't even written sumthin like it b4,but i guess there ae sumthin's which i think I'd be proud of even in the worse situations-

"There are 2 Indias in this country.

One India is straining at the leash,eager to spring forth and live up to all the adjectives that the world has been showering upon us recently .

The other India is the leash.

One India says ,give me the chance and i'll prove myself.The other India says ,prove urself first and maybe then u'll have a chance.

One India lives in the optimism of our hearts.The other India lurks in the scepticism of our minds.

One India hopes.
The other India wants.

But conversions are on the rise.With each passing day,more and more people from the other India have been coming over to this side.And quietly ,while the world is not looking,a pulsating ,dynamic,new India is emerging.

An India whose faith in success is far greater than its fear of failure.An India that no longer boycotts foreign-made goods but buys out the companies that make them instead.

History ,they say is a bad motorist.It rarely ever signals its intensions when it is taking a turn.
This is that rarely-ever momen .History is turning a page.

For more than haf a century,our nation has sprung,stumbled,run,fallen,rolled over,got up ,dusted herslef and cantered,sometimes lurched on.But today ,as we begin our 60th year as a free nation,the ride has bruought us to the edge of time's great precipice.

And one India -a tiny little voice at the back of the head-is looking at the bottom of the ravine and hesitating.
The other India is looking up at the sky,and sayin-Its time to fly"

The anthem,as the TOI guyz call it-of course fr them ,its just another campaign...but the emotions that this anthem has evoked in people would go a long way in makin this country a plce to proud of...

Waz in delhi fr the extended weekend,around republic day ,that is...And that waz the time when this campaign found its really meaning...This R-day was different,it was more than just the parade,the national flag or just a holiday...twaz a day of reckoning,of beleivin that India is finally wakin up nd preparing iself fr the big flight...

Amused me a bit ,at first ,this campaign...but the vigour it brought to the countrymen this R-Day was unparalalled...For the first time ,people actually took time out to gauge the country's performance n almost every sector,nd the future prospectz...and it wudn't be wrong to say that each one of us could proudly beleive that we have contributed in a respectable way by our own standards...be it efforts at a socio-economico-political level ,or a smaller level...Frm taking our satellites succesfully to space,n being granted the US nod fr attaining nuclear proficiency to providing education to children everywhere,we've done it all...
Many things happened which nobody had earlier thought possible...wat started off as a plead of "justice 2 jessica" became a public furore ,albeit a unque way-through candle light marches and sheer voicing of public opinion...
A bill for OBC reservation made a few people venture out into the open with hoardings of protest ,but with the youth charged up wid d spirit of "Rang De Basanti"-it turned into a widespread movement ,a movement whch swallowed not only "students " but the most elite ones,frm the premier medical n engineering colleges of the country...with a protest march turning ghastly n endin in cruel lathi charges,people frm all over the country became one in the fire that raged within...nd frm the ashes was born "Youth For Equality"...nd hunger strikes,nd many more protest marches followed....so wat if we cudn't change the law,atleast we now know that we have the potetial to move mountains....

What started as a survey fr public display of affection (PDA)in its real sense, n its risin popularity at our place,with people gettin more n more comfy with their loved ones nd the dirtygazers turning into "let-em-be "ers,went on to the extent of PDA fr the country,and we suddenly started wondering why wer'e hesitant enuf to sport the national flag on our sleeves,or carry the brand India everywhere with elan!!!

The spirit reached its zenith this R-Day...India poised camps were held at the garden of five senses,ndpeople thronged in large numbers...not only that,i also saw a large no. of people walkin around the beautifully-decorated central secratariat,baskin in the glory,enjoyin their republic's 57th year with ice-creams,nd the chill wasn't enuf to stop them...

For once ,it made me feel proud to be an Indian once again,and think it well to beleive that our future's secure in the hands of our motherland..although the very next day ,when comin out of a crowded metro seemed impossible,it was me who fumed-"Is desh ka kuchh nahi ho sakta!!!"

If Tomorrow never comes...

Nah!!Please dont get too excited...i'm not gonna commit suicide(tho i kno u wont care even if i did)...its just another peice of crap..

I'm so tired of the straight line

and the vultures and theives at my back

and it ain't gettin fine

coz the storm keeps on twisting

and we keep on building the lie

its easier to beleive in this sweet madness

oh,the glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

Just wanna escape one last time

coz if tomorrow never comes,

i'd still have a better today...

It ain't no good worshippin

the almighty God,

when we've not learned to thank Him

for that cup of life wer'e sippin...

hating,loathing,loving,and cryin

poisoning it with our own contempt

It seeps from my veins,

oh,this holy poison

still wanting,waiting

greedy for my own doom

Just wanna change it all,

coz if tomorrow never comes,

i dont wanna live a cursed today...

For all that i've been blessed with in this life

There's an emptiness within me

I was imprisoned by the power of gold

One honest touch ,love set me free...

If the world stops turning,

if the sun stops burning

if tomorrow never comes,

i'd still kno i had a great today

if in this life,i was loved even for a single day...

So if i die tonight

I'll have no regrets

If its in the arms of the ones i love

i will know that i was blessed

And if their eyes are the last thing that i see

then i'll know the beauty heaven holds for me

But if I make it through

If i live to see the day

If i'm on this earth

I'll kno just what to say

coz if tomorrow never comes,

i kno i'd still have today...

CAN'T SAY GOODBYE...

This is gonna b my last poem ....hv lost more than just the inspiration now...

Here I'm standing like an open book
In front of you - my page is turning
Pick a chapter , and take a look
What do you see
Maybe now you're learning
My heart's breaking only you can stop
The pain I feel, I can't give up
I ask the question that I need to know
Won't you listen to me

Please don't walk away - leave me behind
With these crazy feelings
No one is to blame - ain't that a shame
But I still believe in you
You're the one i call-"friend"
That is why I just can't say goodbye

Here I'm lying in my bed alone
What do I feel - another page is turning
Once again another chapter's closed
And in my mind I see our bridge is burning
I am falling and I can't get up
Seems so far to reach the top
The way I feel for you will never stop
Won't you Listen to me

Don't wanna walk away
Don't wanna let you down
Don't wanna see you crying
Just wanna see you smile

I'll never walk away
I'll never let you down
I'll never leave you crying
I just can't say goodbye
coz you're the one i call-"friend"

MY PAST LIFE....

Was just a bit bored today, nd nthin else to occupy my mind, i thought a little surfing wouldn't be of any harm...Was just browsin through the endlesness of wat i ,and many others who'd agree with me,call my second home-the internet,second only to mother earth, when i came across this weird lookin site-http://www.thebigview.com/pastlife/index.html.
It promised to tell me who i were in my "past" life using just my birthdate in my "present life"..
A laugh full of sarcasm reverberated inside me,and findin a great opprtunity to amuse myself,i entered my birthdate,and pressed the "Diagnose"(!!!) button...
I expected to see some details like my name in past life,occupation,how much i earned ,where i lived,how many wives nd hw many children i had,how i looked like,etc etc...I mean ,it would've bin fun dat way,would've bin even better had they shown me a pic of myself in the so-called "past life"...What i got was this(watch out fr ma comments in the brackets)-

"Your past life diagnosis:

I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male(*thank god thtey didn't write a dinosaur or to make it worse,Adolf Hitler!!*) in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Hungary(*my my ,i was a hungarian !!*)around the year 1775. Your profession was that of a leader, major or captain(*whoa,can hardly think of being d captain of anythin else than our E&C deptt cricket team..*).

Your brief psychological profile in your past life:Timid, constrained, quiet person. You had creative talents, which waited until this life to be liberated(*wonder why talents had to wait 200 yrs to come to the fore,i mean if they never really were visible in my past life,how does this bloke of a guy knew they were inside me!!beats me!!*). Sometimes your environment considered you strange.(*Oh!yeah,ppl must've bin wonderin hw a brown guy was born in Hungary!!*)

The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:Your main lesson is to develop magnanimity and a feeling of brotherhood. Try to become less adhered to material property and learn to take only as much, as you can give back.(*was i some kinda gangster dat i realized in d end social work is my only liberation!!*)

Do you remember now? (*Absolutely,everythin is so damn crystal clear now!!Thnx fr tellin me,i'm off to Hungary to find my roots!!*)"

Whatever it was ,it serioulsy brought a big grin on my face ,and as usual i began to think a second aspect of it-even if its the only time that we've bin born on earth,we lead many lives in a single lifetime itself....

And even though the site gives crappy insights into somethin that might never have existed at the first place,it made me think about my own past life ,
someone that i was only 4 yrs ago,
someone that i was before the transition took place ,
someone whose reflection in the mirror cursed nd chided him,
someone who had suppressed the real me someone inside the depths of his soul,
someone who had forgotten to smile,to love and be loved,
someone who hadn't seen life beyon the comforts of his home nd the confines of his school,
someone who was dependent on every1 around him fr every bit of his life,
someone whose life was as colourless as a black and white tv,
someone who had been so laid down by a closed door,that he cudn't see the other 2 that had been opened...

bt it seems now that with a whirl of time,everythin has changed,that some1 has changed into a completely different person,and left that past life to decay in the gutters of time...
one who tries to match his step with the ever-increasing pace of this world,and picks himself up whenever he falls in the race...
one who perfectly identifies with his own reflection,smilin nd scowlin at it at the same time,
one who dreams a lot,and looks forward to makin em come true...
one who sees somethin good in everything that happens,thou sheds a tear or 2 fr everythin gone awry,
one who enjoys the melancholy of the sound of the tree leaves when he's walkin alone
one who firmly beleives in god n never asks Him-"Why me??"
One who thanks Him for His angel ,
one who sees love in every small thing,
one who pushes thru the darkness,coz he knows his destination makes it worthwhile,
one who's been a pawn,a pauper,a puppet, a pirate and a king...

I dont knw how many lives i'm gonna lead in my lifetime,and how many roles i'm gonna play,
bt i just know one thing ,each time i start afresh,i'll thank god fr the "past life" coz without it i wudn't have bin able live thru the present one...